I know we all say it...
Where does the time go?
You blink and a month has gone by.
I've been meaning to come on and blog - but I keep telling myself tomorrow and then start another project, head out to the garden, or take zoe for a walk.
It has been an amazing summer ...
June...
- skydiving with a wonderful group
- a successful Team Vogel Weekend
July...
- a really bad hiking trip that we survived and made the best of
- craft camp
- the loggers game
Speaking of the Logger Game... I have a picture of the future Team Vogel from the game.
Where does the time go?
You blink and a month has gone by.
I've been meaning to come on and blog - but I keep telling myself tomorrow and then start another project, head out to the garden, or take zoe for a walk.
It has been an amazing summer ...
June...
- skydiving with a wonderful group
- a successful Team Vogel Weekend
July...
- a really bad hiking trip that we survived and made the best of
- craft camp
- the loggers game
Speaking of the Logger Game... I have a picture of the future Team Vogel from the game.
August...
- helping decorate for an amazing wedding
- a trip to Georgia and South Carolina
- some amazing birthday cake
...and now back to work (I just finished my first week back. I definitely feel refreshed from the time off and lucky, but man it is hard to stay focused :).)
As the time continues to fly by and I continue to embrace the day - the moment, I never lose track of how many days it has been since I lost my best friend. I think I've been putting off this blog, for just writing that last sentence brought me to tears (and darn it - I'm at the library borrowing their internet...)
My smile is real now and I've found a way to live again.
I think about Joe every day and can't believe it has been over 3 years since I had the chance to hold his hand. He taught me so many things in the time we had together. I am thankful for the time we had and grateful he is no longer dealing with cancer. I use to wish he were still here, sometimes even thinking I would take a day with Joe and cancer anytime if it meant I could see him. I have changed. I would never take another day with Joe and cancer. Wherever he is - I know he is one healthy guy ,making others laugh, loving unconditionally and making a difference.
Joe and my family taught me to be a survivor. I am surviving and glad I am able to embrace the new opportunities that come my way. It doesn't mean I don't fall - have my bad days - or sometimes wish this wasn't my life. These days are fewer and don't last as long. It is not natural for me to be unhappy - I just needed to figure out it is ok to be happy.
The phrase"time heals" has always bothered me...I think you learn to live with a hole in your heart. I don't think the hole heals, but you can sure put a pretty bandaid on it.
I share this with you for many reasons. I want others to know I am ok and maybe this will help give someone else hope that they will find their way too.
The one thing that never leaves me - the memories... the smiles, the laughter. They fill the hole in my heart on the hard days (and sometimes make me tear up and other days they make me smile).
- helping decorate for an amazing wedding
- a trip to Georgia and South Carolina
- some amazing birthday cake
...and now back to work (I just finished my first week back. I definitely feel refreshed from the time off and lucky, but man it is hard to stay focused :).)
As the time continues to fly by and I continue to embrace the day - the moment, I never lose track of how many days it has been since I lost my best friend. I think I've been putting off this blog, for just writing that last sentence brought me to tears (and darn it - I'm at the library borrowing their internet...)
My smile is real now and I've found a way to live again.
I think about Joe every day and can't believe it has been over 3 years since I had the chance to hold his hand. He taught me so many things in the time we had together. I am thankful for the time we had and grateful he is no longer dealing with cancer. I use to wish he were still here, sometimes even thinking I would take a day with Joe and cancer anytime if it meant I could see him. I have changed. I would never take another day with Joe and cancer. Wherever he is - I know he is one healthy guy ,making others laugh, loving unconditionally and making a difference.
Joe and my family taught me to be a survivor. I am surviving and glad I am able to embrace the new opportunities that come my way. It doesn't mean I don't fall - have my bad days - or sometimes wish this wasn't my life. These days are fewer and don't last as long. It is not natural for me to be unhappy - I just needed to figure out it is ok to be happy.
The phrase"time heals" has always bothered me...I think you learn to live with a hole in your heart. I don't think the hole heals, but you can sure put a pretty bandaid on it.
I share this with you for many reasons. I want others to know I am ok and maybe this will help give someone else hope that they will find their way too.
The one thing that never leaves me - the memories... the smiles, the laughter. They fill the hole in my heart on the hard days (and sometimes make me tear up and other days they make me smile).
I miss that smile like crazy.
Signing off and sending my love. Hoping all of you had a wonderful summer and cheers to a new school year starting (in a few days...) I plan to take full advantage of the long weekend!
Peace and Hugs -
Rach
Signing off and sending my love. Hoping all of you had a wonderful summer and cheers to a new school year starting (in a few days...) I plan to take full advantage of the long weekend!
Peace and Hugs -
Rach
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