One component I continue to work through – transitioning, If I am off on an adventure, traveling somewhere, I find it emotionally draining to return home. Small changes set my mind spinning these days – in the past I would roll with them (Most of the time :) ).
I’ve decided to make one of the biggest changes, I will be moving out of my house, our house. I’m excited that I have the opportunity to move into the country – have more space and start a new chapter. But…I am leaving the 4 walls that held many memories for Joe and I. Memories cannot be taken. They will move with me. But I can’t tell my heart / mind how to feel. If it hurts, it hurts.
This weekend – I lost it. I broke down and realized this will be one of the toughest changes I face…one of the toughest I face without Joe.
We had always dreamed of moving out of our house (apartment) and into a home with no renters. When we finally got serious about this – the cancer had returned and financially our house (apartment) was the best option. Dreams are ever changing, evolving…I am working towards a new dream.
As I continue to pack, things of Joe’s surround me. I never knew of somethings…all the sports jerseys I found in the basement :)…And other things bring me back to the happiest moments…two lanterns we bought when we were in Mexico. But the greatest was a list…A list on white computer paper, with scribbles surrounding the edge, in Joe’s handwriting / chicken scratch, titled “The Simple Things “.
Joe – you were always the calming spirit I needed and helped me keep life in perspective. Here’s to the simple things in life – that make us who we are, bring love and laughter to our lives, and make living worth it.
The Simple Things – by Joe
-Twins Fest
-Frito Limo Bus
-Kirsten / Payton
-Benefit #1
-Benefit #2
-Carolina with Deano
-Olive Garden / Arcadia
-Dean’s Wedding
-Friendship with Tiff
-Shing Wako
-Vegas
-Colorado / World Series
-Chicago #1
-Xmas at Grandmas
-Poopy Basement
-Arizona
-Kansas City
-Milwaukee with Friends
-Milwaukee with Rach
-Zoe
-Rabbit (0 for 4)
-Ralph
-Ossawinamakee (spelling?)
-Florida – 8th grade
-Moving
-Class Trip
-Band Trips
-Duluth Days
-Jeff and Dean take 1 (First night)
-Jeff and Dean Adventures (cruise)
-South Carolina Trips
-St. Thomas
-Florida Spring Training
-Bergler Cabin
-Isla Mujeres
-12 Bars of Christmas
-30th Birthday in Chicago
-Fantasy Football
-Denard Span (Autograph Party)
-Keith Urban
-Jovi / Daughtry
-Nate / Brody / Theo
-Wiffle Ball
-Softball
-Basillica Block Party – Allison
-Loggers Game
-Wedding #1
-Wedding #2
-Katie’s Wedding
-Angie’s Wedding
For someone who had the all the right in the world to be down – unappreciative… He wouldn’t think of it. He appreciated everyone, everything, every moment. Here’s to adding a new entry on my list of simple things – moving to the country.
Love, Hugs and a New Address –
Rach
P.O. Box 1104
Winona, MN 55987