So... Before I catch up on all the happenings of the week. Check out the Northern my mom caught with the help of our friend Cara. It was 44.5" long and weighed 10.2 lbs. Skinny and long - just like my mom :)
Alright - now I will back track a little... In my last post, I was still wishing and wanting to have a dream with Joe in it. Well - I had my dream. It was bittersweet. Joe was so healthy and alive… He was cracking jokes – making me laugh – and was just there. It was so hard to wake up. All I wanted to do was go back to sleep and be there with him again. I’m not sure I am ready for the dreams yet…
This grieving process is interesting – most days I feel lost in my own life, but seem to find a path. I’m more forgetful than I have ever been. But, I’m surviving. This past week has been harder than I could have ever expected. I would describe it as “shitty, but good”. Even with the ups and downs – there are always good things rolling my way.
I received a rock from some very special people. I guess it is more of a boulder. Engraved in the boulder is Believe in Joe’s handwriting with Team Vogel underneath. Joe was my rock. Words cannot express how grateful I am for this gift and how truly special it is.
On Tuesday this week, I was sewing like a mad woman and got to thinking that I could really use some good tunes. I got up from the sewing machine and was sidetracked the mailbox – and what was there…a new CD. Music does sooth the soul and especially when it shows up at the perfect moment. I truly appreciate all who have created a CD and keep me in the music loop.
Well on Thursday – I packed up and headed Wells to visit my grandparents. Enjoyed some good conversation many at Grandma Mary’s and at Grandma and Grandpa Salisbury’s. Great food was had too – Chicken Enchiladas and some fabulous grilled burgers.
Friday, I went to Owatonna to visit my Aunt before I headed up North to Ely with my mom, aunts, and friend. We had a girl’s weekend at our friend’s cabin. It was beautiful…canoeing, fishing, “the monster catch”, sauna/jumping in the lake, some cocktails, and great conversation. Thank you Ladies!
So, the long weekend comes to an end, Zoe and I are sitting here cuddled on the couch, and I think of you Joe. It has been 1 month since I held your hand, looked into your eyes, saw you breath, kissed your cheek. It is overwhelming when I allow myself to think about it. I am tired of crying – it doesn’t help anyways…but I am tired of going on without you too. People say I am strong. My strength came from you and now without you – I find the strength in the people I surround myself with. So to all of you out there – Thank you for the strength you give me!
Alright - now I will back track a little... In my last post, I was still wishing and wanting to have a dream with Joe in it. Well - I had my dream. It was bittersweet. Joe was so healthy and alive… He was cracking jokes – making me laugh – and was just there. It was so hard to wake up. All I wanted to do was go back to sleep and be there with him again. I’m not sure I am ready for the dreams yet…
This grieving process is interesting – most days I feel lost in my own life, but seem to find a path. I’m more forgetful than I have ever been. But, I’m surviving. This past week has been harder than I could have ever expected. I would describe it as “shitty, but good”. Even with the ups and downs – there are always good things rolling my way.
I received a rock from some very special people. I guess it is more of a boulder. Engraved in the boulder is Believe in Joe’s handwriting with Team Vogel underneath. Joe was my rock. Words cannot express how grateful I am for this gift and how truly special it is.
On Tuesday this week, I was sewing like a mad woman and got to thinking that I could really use some good tunes. I got up from the sewing machine and was sidetracked the mailbox – and what was there…a new CD. Music does sooth the soul and especially when it shows up at the perfect moment. I truly appreciate all who have created a CD and keep me in the music loop.
Well on Thursday – I packed up and headed Wells to visit my grandparents. Enjoyed some good conversation many at Grandma Mary’s and at Grandma and Grandpa Salisbury’s. Great food was had too – Chicken Enchiladas and some fabulous grilled burgers.
Friday, I went to Owatonna to visit my Aunt before I headed up North to Ely with my mom, aunts, and friend. We had a girl’s weekend at our friend’s cabin. It was beautiful…canoeing, fishing, “the monster catch”, sauna/jumping in the lake, some cocktails, and great conversation. Thank you Ladies!
So, the long weekend comes to an end, Zoe and I are sitting here cuddled on the couch, and I think of you Joe. It has been 1 month since I held your hand, looked into your eyes, saw you breath, kissed your cheek. It is overwhelming when I allow myself to think about it. I am tired of crying – it doesn’t help anyways…but I am tired of going on without you too. People say I am strong. My strength came from you and now without you – I find the strength in the people I surround myself with. So to all of you out there – Thank you for the strength you give me!
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